Wing Man is no more
I’m amazed that in adult life some adults still act like school aged teens. I feel like I had a supposed friend who is living out the role of several teen movies that depict teenagers being manipulative for their own amusement. The only problem is in the movies we see the actions clearly as being manipulative with a motive. The director directs us to see the plot and we wait for the weaker teen being used to wake-up and ditch the evil, bad, teen “friend” who isn’t a real friend.
Why would a working professional adult need to be manipulating and shiesty? Why make friends with someone just to be manipulative for your own amusement? I think that might be called psychopathic personality, one who gets off on seeing how much they can get from someone and how much fun they can have doing it.
I just woke-up. I have just realized I was the weaker teen being used for devious amusement by another. I’m very upset by my lack of awareness until now. I have never encountered a psychopath like this person before.
I feel like a fool.
I do not let people in my work place use me, mistreat me, or feel they can get away with walking all over me. I learned as I’ve gotten older to stand my ground because when I was younger I felt like I was mistreated and walked all over. You don’t get to where I am letting others manipulate you, high powered women in male dominated careers have to be two things – smarter than men and tougher than men. I used to think I knew more than they did, now I know I do and it scares them.
Instead of me being fear mongered, I let them be scared instead. So, how I let this happen in my personal life is very disturbing to me.
I’ve been a little busy juggling my daily job and my part-time professorship job. I’d like to think perhaps I didn’t see a “friend” coming after me due to being distracted by my career and life. I was blind and I was used. It’s going to take a little time for me to forgive myself. My “wing man” is gone from the picture, good riddance to the fucktard.